Humbled...

This is such a hard post to write.

I have been under such immense stress the past couple of months as in the kind of stress where you break out in tears just because. Everyone in my family is healthy and we have a roof over our heads and food to eat but financially, the you know what has hit the fan.

My husband has a great job where he makes great money but bad financial decisions in the past, some recent dumb financial decisions and then a major event over a year ago that was out of our control has basically turned me into a wreck.

Sometimes I just feel like giving up but I'm not a quitter. My husband and I have three kids who depend on us and we are not going to ever let them down. We are cutting back on what we can and are selling things that we haven't used in forever that we for some reason have been holding onto. I've even had to change the kinds of food I buy which honestly made me want to cry today at the store.

To be truthful, I didn't even take a picture of what I bought because I was embarrassed. I didn't buy any junk food and it was all very healthy but it was not organic. Now that I am looking at what I just wrote I am thinking "how ridiculous it that?" Why is it that I am embarrassed that I bought healthy food for my family? Yes, organic is the gold standard but conventional fruits and veggies are nothing to sneeze at. I have let myself become shamed by all of the healthy Facebook pages and blogs I read; I let all of my reading make me feel like I am poisoning my family if I don't buy the absolute "best".

Well guess what? I have been humbled. If you don't have the money, you don't have the money. Today I bought good food and should not be ashamed and should not let others intentionally or unintentionally shame me.

We all just have to do our best and realize that our best may not be someone else's best. So judge away if you must, but I'll be too busy working hard to do what I can to get my family where it needs to be to listen.