See You Later, Alligator...

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Family is great. Family is wonderful.

Some advice though?

Living too close makes family unbearable.

We are in a situation right now where the life that we had envisioned for ourselves and our children has gone down the toilet. We have been living in my in-laws house for the past few years with them living in an in-law apartment attached to the house with the intention of buying the house. We have been paying the mortgage and making updates to the house here and there because this was going to be our home- the place we would raise our kids and grow old in.

Through recent events (lets just say that I can only bend so far before I break- don't mess with a stay at home mom!) we have realized that no matter how much we pay for the home or how much work we put into the home that it will never be ours. I am glad said events happened now before we actually signed anything because otherwise things would have turned miserable for us but I am also angry because we held up our end of the agreement and the other party did not. Instead of saving for a downpayment on a house for the past four years we puttered our money away on this house and we have nothing to show for it.

As I write this I am crying, not because I want to stay here but because I am sad that what I dreamed of just is not going to be. I am crying because I have to uproot my family due to someone else and their asinine behavior- change is scary, especially when it all comes up on you so fast. Once we get out of here and we move to a new community I will feel great and once we buy a house I'll feel even better. We're going to rent a town house for a year to give us time to save money and then if all goes to plan we'll be in our very own house (drama free) in a year.