I'm Back- Times Two

So I took a few days off because I was feeling overwhelmed and I was a bit stressed on top of that.

Why stressed? Well, I was waiting for a very important doctor's appointment to happen of which I went to yesterday and thankfully it is all good news.

I am officially seven weeks pregnant and now have a heartbeat and some pictures to prove it!

I know it is still early but I just have such a good feeling about this baby. I feel so blessed to be pregnant again, especially after losing a baby in October. I almost started to cry when the ultrasound technician showed me the heartbeat but I didn't because I'm not one to cry in front of people.

I have been taking it pretty easy and going to bed very early- which s nice because I am almost finished with my biography on John Adams. My cleaning schedule has taken a backseat to me just doing what is truly mandatory to keep the house looking clean in a half assed sort of way. This is going to be our last baby so I am going to try and go about this pregnancy differently than my past pregnancies. I going to try and not stress about the house being perfectly clean, about keeping up with all of the deals at stores and about everything else that I tend to stress about and shouldn't.

I will always think about the babies that I lost because even though I was not able to meet them in person they are still my children and I love them. My joy now in no way takes away from the sadness I felt when I lost my little angels and it in no way takes away any sympathy I have for others who have gone through what I have or who are going through it now.