Today I got the results of my blood work and my hcg levels have gone down. At this point it is just a matter of waiting for the miscarriage to happen. I have been cramping a little so the hope that I had that everything was going to be ok is gone and is replaced with sadness.
It is so strange how everything in our lives can change so quickly- how one minute you can be planning where the baby is going to sleep and how the car seats are going to be moved around to make room for him and the next minute you are wondering how you are going to cope with the loss of a child that you never met but love so much.
I am so grateful for what I have- a husband who is my one true love and two beautiful, healthy children who I love and would do anything for- but at the same time I am mourning the baby that I am going to lose and realizing just how unfair life can be.