I guess it is back to life as usual...
My husband went to work today so even though I am still bleeding and cramping I just have to suck it up, stop feeling sorry for myself and go back to being a mom and putting my kids first.
Sitting here, I am scared at how I am going to get through the day by myself but I know I can do it- I guess I am also scared at how I am going to move on from this. I know that I will always be sad about losing the baby because I am still sad about my first miscarriage that happened five years ago. Even though it was so long ago, I still cry when I think about it. And now, when I think about the fact that I have lost two babies, I just feel devastated.
So, it is back to life as usual for me. I am going to suck it up and be the best mom to my kids that I can be because even though I have had a tremendous loss I still have so much to be grateful for in my life...
I know how hard it can be to loose two babies. I had two miscarriages about 6 months apart (I lost both very early in the pregnancy) and besides the physical pain, you have to deal with the emotional pain. Take it all just one day at a time and don't push yourself too hard. Sometimes, we Moms forget that we aren't Super Woman!! Take Care!! :)
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